Singing me to you

New Year "Dissolution"

What a month it has been really. exams, youth camp, carolling, catching up sessions, dinners, band prac. etc..

Its one of my favourite time of the year once again... the last few days of the year. Its the time when I usually sit down in front of my desk, with a pen in hand... jotting down some thoughts about the past year and making plans for the new.

this year has been an eventful year... i've been asked today to summarise how 2009 meant to me and i felt it was more of learning and growing in my dependence on God. When i do so i begin to see Him being in control, like being in the driving seat of my life....I don't like the feeling of waking up every morn panicking and not being able to thank God for the day, going through the motions or simply living out the day as though thinking I'm gonna live forever.

When i slowly learn to let go, i begin to see change. tangible ones too... subtle things that hinder me in my everyday life (eg: holding my breath) seem to slowly dissolve away.. Praise Him.

Even in service, I also constantly pray that I do not lose the joy and passion in serving Him in ministry... one brother encouraged me in his christmas card that said... God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. Indeed the flesh fails us time and time again but our big God is always working in and through us as we serve.

Thank God for friends and family too who stick and stand by me all the time, always praying and being concerned for my life. For we were never meant to live this life by ourselves, but keeping each other accountable as a community:)

Thank God for the gift of music too, that i can use it to serve Him and communicate with Him, impact another's life, be in a band, share and live out this passion with other like minded musicians.

There's still so many things that I need to learn in and from life, so many plans and dreams that have yet to come true, uncertainties, questions, and new things to discover... I'm excited yet fearful at the same time... not sure how things in my life will eventually be in time to come, which direction and step to take... its like stepping into the unknown. But I wanna continue choosing to trust myself into the hands of my loving God, the one who created me and promised a plan for me... promised me a hope and a future. Thank you for saving me!

Like Paul lets press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called you heavenward in Christ Jesus...

Having said that, cmon! lets usher in the new year together! :)

posted by comeawaywithme @ 7:35 PM